- bad dreams

Quem me dera olhar para trás e dizer que foi tudo um pesadelo, acordar e ter tudo o que sempre sonhei ..
Mas não , a minha vida é mesmo um pesadelo , um filme de terror a longo prazo .
Não sou mais quem costumava ser , mudei de forma forçada, não por vontade própria, pelos factos que surgiram na minha rotina nasceu um novo "eu" .
É mais escuro que o anterior "eu"... solto sorrisos, tento ser feliz mas na verdade não o sou, estou muito longe de o ser e de me conseguir enganar a mim própria.
O pesadelo não volta, permanece e não me resta mais que viver nele. O meu coração eh uma caixa de gelo que cada vez que bate se parte e está prestes a quebrar por completo.  Poucas pessoas o podem fazer parar de bater.  Estou morta e nisso sou perfeitamente boa , garanto.
Aprendo com os erros e castigo-me por todos eles, sou eu que os causo e por causa deles perdi muitas das pessoas que amava mas descobri quem são os verdadeiros e quem são os falsos amigos , e nessa parte consigo tirar orgulho de mim mesma.

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